Never Underestimate Yourself :)

song of the day : Dreaming - B2ST (Yoseob.Dongwoon.Junhyung)
quote of the day : Everything is gonna be alright. :')
pic of the day: i look weird. GAH XD



giving my dears a big KISS <3



24.11.11 Jas's Weather Forecast :')

It rained a little yesterday during midnight.

Thinking back the times when we laughed. I cried. I never thought that we wud look back on our laughter and cry. :'( - Jas.

OLAAAAAA~ LOVELY :DDD

gawd. I have no idea how i passed those friggin boring days. =.=

i cuddle into my blankets everyday around 11 pm.

but woke up unwillingly everyday round 11 sumtin.

LOL. weird huh?

My daily routine? SUCKS like shyt. LOL :)

hahas XD

there were a few things that i swore that i WILL . er sumhow. achive them

such as. DUN laugh. LOL :D

1. get tall and thin (pft. i noe u're laughing now.==)

2. speak eng fluently. (im reading a story book everyday. NOT kidding. i can finish a storybook a day *winks*)

3. take up guitar lessons from lor ah qi. XD (im scared dat it will prob fail cuz dad is not letting me to overnite at qiqi house. GRRRR ><)

4......

5....

nah. those are secrets :) u dun wanna noe anyway :)

and OWH OWH OWH OWH ~!

the wall in front of my study table that i've been talking to for the last 3 years to about sejarah. LOL

now has finally turned into a B2ST wall.

LOL. i noe u dunt get it. erm. neither do i. :)

but. OH WELL :)

at least im happy with it. wheee :D



This 'notice board' was bought form Daiso :)
see yoseob there? gahh. my bias :)
designed by Jas N karmen muii :)



Nah. my wall. LOL :D keeeekeee. XD



:) Wheeee.


Hui yi and I are going to plan another outing. but with me ATTENDING. :) wheee.
Huiyi said she wanna watch real steel. I WAN TOO. but i think a lot of ppl had edy watched it. Pft.
so mayb
PUSS IN THE BOOTS? wheee. 3D!!!!
yeah i noe huiyi. we are wearing specs and it sucks to wear 3D glasses sumore. :)
so another outing is on zeeeeeee way :)


HAPPY BDAY  MATTHEW :)
grow up handsomely and stay cute and charming :)
psst. i noe yuan qi is not goin to let matthew see this.
so matthew. mayb 20 years later. I hope u will be able to see this post.
wheee :)
Your sis told me that u look like yoseob hahas XD so. im gonna kidnap you sumday :) by hook and by crook. hahas. :)
 btw. yuan qi arh. ur bro yoseob. my bro hong ki leh. LETS EXCHANGE. whee :)



about the things that i wanted to achive?
one of it wad get tall and thin. :)
i tink im goin to suceed. SOON :)
gawd. 11 months of suffering. NO PORK NO MEAT NO FRIED STUFFS. gawd
and all those exercising.
*shakes head*
my flabby legs are gone :) i tink. LOL
here's a peep :)
see those legs? LOL.
No edit lar weih :)



give a pat on my head pls *winks*






pst. greyson chance rawks :)
pssst. T-ara cry cry rawks even more :)

16.11.11 sakae sushi with sherjie :)

yoseobie :)

Opps :) <3

             

sigining off

Jas

staying strong :)

loving you guys

ttm :)

Tell Me Why. :)

song of the day : tear us apart - nadhira ft Ron E Jones
quote of the day : You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day . :)
pic of the day : GAHH :D

15.11.11 Jas's weather forecast :)

The rain had seemed to stop a few days ago. Rainbow was noticed. Its great to see that the Sun is out again. I hope it stays. :)

Hey there LOVELY :) gahh :)

I have never thought of my dad helping me to solve OUR prob.

Pfft. But at least i know that there will be no more tears. no more apologies from me :)

Thanks alot Dad. You're my SUPERMAN :)

After what all happened.

I know who are the ones that really showed true love and care for me.

Thank you.

Esp YOU<3 :)

LOR qi qi. Nicole Chong. Tee wan ting. Khor Hui yi. Lim Wan Xuan. My family and him :)

Woke up around 7.30 am.

I have been a real good girl these days.

Bed time was never past 11 pm

Wheee. applause please. :)

Went to have breakfast with dad and mum and sher jie.

had FABOLOUS pork mince noddles.

LOL. but i did not eat the PORK.

vegetarian lar please :)

*eventhou it was simple. but GOSH. it tastes like ____ (fill it in with the food you like. LOL)*

Then dropped of sher jie at her campus. :)

Went home and started doing house chores.

Planned to help mummmy cause i have got ntg to do.

PPFFFT. :)

I wiped and cleaned the windows and mirrors while having earphones pluuged in my ears.

WHEEE. sang songs and wiped away happily,

wheee :)

gawd. I noe there is no one in this world who is so happy to be doing housework.

:)

the carried on with vaccumming and mopping from the very TOP (3rd floor) to the botttom of my house.

GAHHH . RAJIN neh :)

i was totally worn out after all these.

took a bath and had RAMYEON (korean maggi mee :D) with mummy. :)

then later stalk B2ST with ipad. :)

yoseooooobbb :)

then watched music bank on KBS world.

btw, SNSD the boys totally rawks, esp their eng version :)

had dinner and now im in front of my laptock. :)

LOL.

yuan qi  :)  thankiu for staying by my side. i noe i hadnt been a good fren. :) sorrry. :) but i promise i will do better :) wheee. trust me! LOL. :) and that ? i noe you will get over with it somehow. By hook or by crook. LOL. i noe im simply adding the idioms. LOL. :) Like you say. time heals everything :) .We promised to move on together. I've moved on. and now im will MAKE you move on too. :) May god bless you . LOL. :) love you <3.

 

TMR PLANS :

 go sunway with lor yuan qi. khor hui yi. BUT FAILED. cuz dua pun tak boleh pergi. GAHHHH :) so changing to next tues. :)

Dad bringing us to 1U. cause he wanna buy a new workout machine for me. Its for getting slim and getting all of my flabby arms and legs away. WHEEE. thanks dad :)

I  think that im into PURPLE these days :)

yoseob likes purple. :)

purple is as sweet as PINK too :)

whoever invented this 2 colours. I LOVE YOU :) u rawk! :)

there are some songs that i really want to recommend. gawd. Its heaven. LOL. nice song. ;)

1. Tear us apart - Nadhira ft Ron E Jones

    ratings - 4 stars

    comments - THIS IS AN MALAYSIAN PIECE OF WORK. LOL. malaysia boleh leh :)

2. Lady - The BOSS

    ratings - 3.5 stars

    comments - KOREAN song :) yuan qi! check them out!

 

3. Message - The Name

    ratings - 4 stars

    comments - Cute and catchy song :) korean.

4. Mine Mine - Jay Chou

    ratings - 5 stars *bling bling*

    comments -  OH -SO-AWESOME song :) MUST HEAR!

 

I took a chance, I took a shot

And you might think I'm bulletproof but I'm not

You took a swing, I took it hard

And down here from the ground, I see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude

I'm feeling like I don't know you.

You could write a book on how

To ruin someone's perfect day

Well, I get so confused and frustrated

Forget what I'm trying to say.

I'm sick and tired of your reasons

I got no one to believe in.

I take a step backand let you go

I told you I'm not bulletproof

Now you know :)



Jas signing off.

Keep smiling my dear ones. :)

I love you all. ttm *winks* 

My heart? It's fragile. Dont try to break it. Cuz you will never find the pieces. :')

I feel like DYING.
Does dying realy solve everything?
If it does. I want to.
Does jumping off the roof stops the pain that im feeling in my heart?
If it does. I want to.
Does dying turn everything back in time?
If it does. I want to.
Does dying make me see all the real faces of those people?
if it does. I want to.

All i want to is feel a little better. Just a little is what im asking for.
....

Jas signing off.
Hurting to the max.

Pfft. wrote this all when i was at home. ;(

You see THAT girl, yeah her.
She seems so invincible right.
but just touch her & she'll flinch.
She has secrets & she trusts no one.
she's the perfect example of betrayal.
cause everyone she trusted, broke her.

It wasn't your fault, it was mine for believing every word u said.

She Has Secrets You'll Never Know Or Understand,
She Appears So Strong On The Outside,
But On The Inside Her World Is Spinnin Upside Down.
Shes Smiling And Standing Tall 2 The Outta World,
Shes Crying And Breaking Down In Her Inner World.

She Appears So Happy 2 Her Mates,
But Alone, She Shares Her Tears With Her Pillow.
She Knows Not 2 Get Her Hopes Up,
As They Always Come Crashing Down.
Shes Heard It All Before & Felt It All.
Shes Experienced More Then Her Fair Share.
1 Touch, & She'll Flinch
1 Harsh, Word & She'll Cry
1 Bad Moment, & She'll Break Down

She Trusts No1, Because The People She Has, Hurt Her & Leave Her 2 Pick Up The Pieces
She Believes No1, Because The People She Has, Lie & Betray Her.
So For Now She'll Keep 2 Herself & Pretend Everything Is Fine, When Everything Is Wrong

I Know This Girl, Because This Girl...
Is Me.


Secrets, secrets
Lies, lies
She sits in her room,
cries and cries.
There's no more trust
In this girl's heart.
She finally found out
That life isn't perfect.
She lived in her dreams
As some often do
But she crawled out
Into the world everyone knew
Things that once were
Happiness once known;
The truth of it all
To her was shown
Her tortured heart
Will never trust again.
She'll never know
A real true friend.
No more trust,
For no more lies.
She'll sit in her room
And cry and cry.

To YOU
Why turn your back on me? Why did you lie to me when i asked you either u n them OK dy? Why are you scolding me now? Why leave me dealing with all this DAMN CRAP when you was supposed to be on my side when my whole world was going to collapse? Why treat me good when you was going back on their side? Why bring my hopes up and crush them into pieces and want me to pick up the pieces till im bleeding? You said yourself that you were going back to them. Dont deny. U said you were happy when all this stuffs were settled. and now u are telling me that you're helping me to get back with them? When my heart is still damaged? You said that you will SUPPORT me with whatever  i do. and now u want me to talk FACE TO FACE with them when you noe that i still cant get over with them? the day u chatted wif me and wan me to tok bak wif them. I sensed it. that's why i asked you. U asked me to quit thinking too much. I did. I was comforting myself dat i was thinking too much. N today. What i heard. MY world crushed. Tears kept flowing.
You. the one that i trusted. You turned your back on me.
I duno what's really going on. and i dunt even wan to think bout it.
you said that it was all misunderstanding. TELL ME. what misunderstanding do we have here? that they hate me was just an MISUNDERSATNDING? that they treat my sorry like RUBBISH was a misunderstanding? that SHE forgot that i bought her present and forgot to say THANK YOU was a misunderstanding? that went i was warded into hospital and NONE of them asked about it and carry on with their life like i never exist was a MISUNDERSTANDING? tell me will you?
I hurt them? HOW? my blog? my status? my words? FIRST. i never mentioned that it was them. they want to stick it to themself. so its not my prob. They dun like it. So just igonore it. my blog? they dun like it. den dun give a damn to visit it. cuz like you say. its MY blog. WHO was the one who supported me when i wrote those stuffs? and now u are turning it all the otther way and saying that i hurt them like this? HAHA. you dunt noe how much they hurt me. thats why. what they critise you its  those relationship problems that you have. but me? its all bout me. got it? what they dun really understand that is that. why was i making this fuss is because. i got hurt by my own BEST frens. they wrote the letter like they were not my BEST FREN. as if i was their enemy. say dat i was small gas? its because i cared all of you. if i dunt give a damn reaction about what they said. then im not a fren. a NORMAL person when saw those words, will cry and make a fuss about it. BUT. i apologised after that. I APOLOGISED. u got me? but what did they do? go on and live their life. when Tan Jing Hui wanted to be back wif me. JUST normal frens. they asked her not to. and she. LISTENED. so? this was all my fault?
tell u all what. THOSE eyes that are looking at this post right now.
i PLANNED that game. is because i knew that you and you and you already bushuang me to hell. u tot u covered it up well? im sorry. u didnt. i sensed it. so i planned this game.
cuz i want everyone to opened up their heart and not faking it anymore. there must always be sumone to be the BAD PERSON. so? i held the responsibilty without any complaints.
did i ever blamed your ? NO. i blamed myself. did your ever cry? yeah. but not as much as i did.
okay yeah. OH JEH SIN you might say that im the sadddest larh. say that im the only person who got the most feeling lar. say i like to win lar. (btw. i nver tot of my close frens saying dat im kiasu. NEVER did I)
when asked if want to gud back. YOU answered. xin yue yes. jasmine. NO. :)
so what do we have here? tell me will your?
ur wanted to tok face to face. YOU wanted reasons and truth. so there. i gave.
but. what does that make us? back to our old times when we can smile and talk as loud as we like? we cant.
 ur wanted this tok to WANT the reasons and truth. Not HE HAO. so what for? so that ur can make me realised that i was the only one who was wrong all this time? so that i kneel down infront of your and beg and say that im sorry? YOU want it that way huh? ok. deal. if it makes us all better. my pride? ur have smashed it and crush it into pieces when i said sorry tru msg and letter and treat it like shyt. u want my pride? its in the dustbin. :)

Dont tell me that you are dissapointed. Cuz u shudnt be. ;) u shud be happy. That this piece of shyt is getting the hell out from your world.
Dont tell me that this was all a misunderstanding. if it is. we wud have been chatting now and craping all away.
Dont tell me that you were hurt badly. cuz what i left your was just a wound. what your left me was a scar. just like that one on my right leg. Wound heals. Scars? they never do.

I just want a peaceful life from now on. Jasmine. its quitting from Tan Jing Hui, Oh Jeh Sin, Choy Xin Yue, Mok Jia Li and Foo Shy Ying's world. this is the last time i mention ur name. cuz its never goin to appear again. never.

hate me all you want.
call me a bitch.
call me a monster.
call me childish.
call me disgusting.
call me a faker.
call me a liar.
call me a destroyer.
call me KIASU.
call me whatever you want.
cause. i dont give a damn from now on.
i have to get a move on with my life.
My heart? its full with scars now. i cant take any of these anymore.
If you dare to come closer with those harmful words of yours.
I will commite suicide. I will die.
im telling you.
and im giving your the final truth and question.
DO your really treasure the moments? Did your fake it?Did your put urself in my shoes and think about it? Dont tell me. Cuz you have got the answer in your heart. already.

Before it explodes :')

song of the day : Like Birds FT island :D
quote of the day :Never explain yourself. Your friends don't need it and your enemies won't believe it ;')

I picked up the broken pieces. Till im. bleeding.



08.11.11 :) Jas's weather forecast.

The skies are clear. Greyish clouds had vanished. Seems like its going to be a sunny day.

Not gonna rain. Maybe rainbow will not be seen. :D

07.11.11 :D

woke up feeling damn happy cause having a date with yuan qi :)

sher jie was fetching me to sunway. cuz later she met wif her bf. :D

so she kindly suggested that she will give me a ride to sunway.

wheee :)

but still. very scared. was shivering when still in car. LOL

lucikly everything went smooothly.

No honking cars. No *** words :D

wheeee.:)

LOL. when reached lion head.

i saw KAM DICKSON. LOL

the moment i put my feet out from jiejie car.

i saw him. my legs naturelly (i forgot how to spell==) went back into the car. LOL

my sis was like

WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU TRYING TO DO.

:D LOL fish dao die.

then fas fas get my butt out from the car and act as if he's not there. LOL :D

then met up wif yuan qi.

wheee. prettay girl that day :D

we planned to watch movie.

we were actually making a beeline to get the tickets dy.

den suddenly we made up our mind not to watch movie LOL :D

cuz this outing was meant to be for us to CHIT CHAT geh :D

so we went to have brunch at PEPPER LUNCH * i forgot again. pfft :D*

arh qi ordered spaggethi seafood aglio.

me beef duno duno what.

aiya as long as its nice to eat den can dy lorh *winks*

LOL. we were chit chatting all the while. LOL

suddenly noticed arh qi eat dao face all red.

LOL. found out that her's was damn PEDAS man :D

fas fas help her take cold water to COOOOl her down :D

we kept on talking talking.LOL

tok about her bitch friends.

tok about my bitch friends.

:D

crapping away.

FUN :D

PEPPER LUNCH

ratings. 4.5 /5 :D

then we went walking around sambil chit chat.

:D nice

saw alot of shirts and dresses.

arh qi. seriously. u r pretty :D dun tink so much lar. :D

wanted to buy. BUT. touch my purse. very thin le lar. dun wan :D

wanted to drink CHATIME. but

WALAO. the ppl lining thr,

nid so MANY MAR,

LOL. then arh qi recommended TUTTI FRUTTI * LOL tak tau nama lar. saya tau makan jeh :D* i noe i FAIL alrite? but im proud with it. wheee :D

walao. NICE DAO BAO! << the bao is explode har :D

warh...1st time had ice cream dat will bring so many benifits geh. LOL :D

chit chatting away.

then suddenly saw

PATRICK TENG TENG & his JEANNIE CHEONG :D

lol. they tried HIDE. LOL

cnt de lar. i short oni mar. YUAN QI TALLLLL geh leh. still can spot ur. :D

wheeee.

yuan qi n me kind dun wan be litebulb lar. fas fas go.:D

TUTTI FRUTTI

ratings 5/5 :D

later went to the shop nxt to tutti frutti. :D

ON SALE WOR.

buy 3 shirts for 50 jeh.

me n arh qi eyes BLING BLING.

LOL. we each bought a shirt.

we 2 sama punya :D

den went to cashier.

saw her bitch friend.

ppffft.

dun bother her lar. yuan qi,

u red. she PALE lar :D *winks*

around 4.15pm.

we wanted to have starbucks coffee.

but LOL. banyak ppl again

so went to pacific coffee company.

ordered chocolate ice blend

WOAH. thumbs up . nice :D

highly recommended from JASMINE.

woots :D

PACIFIC COFFEE COMPANY

ratings 4/5 :D

outfit of the day :D

 

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
Cause I'm still trying to figure it out
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
Trying to see through the rain coming down
Even though I'm not the only one
Who feels the way I do

\I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in
This world

Jas signing off.

Im still smiling. :) dont worry.

Stop crumpling up my heart :'(

song of the day : though i call B2ST :)
quote of the day : it still hurts. :'(

nothing can change the words that u said.:'(



Hey LOVELY :)

my heart aches. alot :'(

anyone tell me why?

haix.haix. haix.

sighing everyday :(

cant seem to let go.

but what can i do?

i did everything, even saying sorry when i noe that i am not the only one who was wrong.

pfft. u r the one who doesnt give a damn.

i guess . FORGIVE to FORGET the pain :) 

WHEEEEE. so im goin to go hyper again. :)

sumtimes. you just have to force a smile eventhou u r hurt badly inside.

and u feel worn out :)

common show me a BIG SMILE :D

XD

shooooo.. back to topic :D

went for a dinner function in ORIENTAL PALACE near damansara ss2 ;)

nice place :)

the food there is awesome !

but. on diet lar. :)

eat less wheee :)

regretted that i din not bring along my DSLR.

pfffft.  hey hey. dunt throw things at me lar

SO U EXPECT A girl wearing so nice taking a BULKY DSLR?

:D LOL :)

but still i taken pics using my ipod. :)

:/ ipod camera is damn blur. quality? sucks :)

but still. im luvin it like crazy :)

wheee :D

let the pics do da talkin . wheee :D

i dint take lot of pics. pfft. LAZY :)

so..  here it is. LOL :D

tmr dating with arh qi :)

wheeeee. :)

hope everything will turn out great.

will post pics soon :)

I know that you've been off track

you feel like taking one step forward taking two back

no matter how hard you try

things always go bad

you smile on the out

but inside you feel hurt

you say that you're fine

but you feel unsure

try to replace the pain by sayin false words

you see the girl in the mirror..

but you dont know her. :'(

Jas signing off, :)

* i know that tmr's gonna be a better day. without you guys :')*